Sometimes I wish multiple sclerosis had defined symptoms. Like a broken leg – bone is broken/bone will heal. Optical neuritis impairs vision, vision will heal.
But no, MS is a stupid disease that has many flavours. So, even though optical neuritis is my main symptom (ie, what triggered the MRA and spinal tap), I also have depression (but who hasnt), fatigue (show me a mum who isnt) and foggy brain (over 40 anyone?).
But lately, my right wrist is being ‘difficult’. Grab a bag and it gives way. Clicking bones. Not all the time, but enough to make me worry. Is this the beginning of the end? Or is it just old age.
Essentially, for the last 15 years, I’ve worried that any headache was the next sign of MS and my husband would say ‘it’s not a tumor’. That has been our catch-cry for dont be silly, and get over myself. Now, with a solid RRMS diagnosis, its not a tumor, but could it be another flavour of MS.
And that plays with my head.